My Life Changing Incident

Well since it's out there, I might as well tell the tail just to get the facts straight.

Yes it's true, I did once cuss a kid out, but there is more to it then that. It was in Middle School, a long time ago. I was a small kid, and very shy because I got picked on and beat up a lot. So much to the point that I was suffereing academically for it. At that time I did go to church, but I viewed more as a chore, and did not understand what it meant to have a relationship with God. And I almost never prayed.

I wore a mask, at home I was me, at school I was somebody else. I felt the need to fit in, so I did as everyone else did. Well it didn't work, I wasn't accepted, so I became more corrupt hoping that then I would be accepted. Meanwhile my whole self image was in tatters, and I didn't know what to think. I just got swept alongin the current so to speak. It got to the point where I was swearing, and not at all living by morals or Christian principles.

It all came to a head one day, one of my many bullies, who also was trying to "fit in" with the group, decided to throw all my stuff off my desk onto the floor, while I was handing in an assignment. Well when I got back, I was mad, REALLY mad. I just chewed that kid to pieces, I still remember the goading smile he had on his face. Man I used every word in the book on him.

Then suddenly something happened, time froze. It was comparable to an out-of-body experience. I was standing there, looking down at the scene, and my conscience says to me; literally says to me: "Look at this, look at this monster you have become. You are no better then them, you live a double life, you hate them and yourself. Do you think this is what God wants? Arn't you supposed to be a Christian?" So I sat there stunned. Time started up again, and I sat down, without saying another word. I thought about that the rest of the day. That night, I prayed, for the first time REALLY prayed to God, asking me to help sort this thing out. This was not the person I wanted to be. I wanted to shed this monster, before it totally consumed me.

That very week I convinced my mom to Homeschool me. And I left that wretched place. After that horrid day I pledged to NEVER sink that low again, to devout myself to a Christian lifestyle, and to have that personnal relationship with God, for he was the only one who could truly save me from myself.

The story doesn't end there though, not by a long shot. I still took a couple classes at the school. Ad one day in the hall, the kid I swore out tapped me on the shoulder. I turned around and looked him in the eye, not knowing what to expect. To my surprise he apologized to me, for picking on me, and making me feel so bad. He was the very first person to ever do that. I said it was alright, and we shook hands. From then one, we actually became friends.

I guess the moral of that whole incident was that I needed that to lead me to God, like a lost sheep being finally found by his master. I needed that to show me how wrong I was, and that I needed God to guide me. And because of that incident, and the relationship with God formed then, we are all here on the C.A.A. forums right now. Because surely the C.A.A. would not have happened for if that incident hadn't happened. It was the major turning point in my life, I'm never looking back.

The ultimate irony here is, for all that time I was living a double life, trying to fit in, I never did. But when I shed that double life, and became me, I actually became one of the more populer gus in school, everybody knew me. Now popularity doesn't matter, not in the least, but the sheer irony of it makes it worth being mentioned here. So there you have it, that's how I was, and how I became who I am today.

*applause*

ABL, I still can't believe you cussed someone out, even after telling me on Xfire. God must have really knocked some sense into you if you went from that, to what you are now... Amazing!

The troubles in life are the series of events God uses to strengthen our faith.

Or kill us

PoWn3d_0704 wrote:Or kill us

No. God always works to strengthen us as people, so that we may better serve him. Having us dead doesn't help him any.

Well. Now that depends.

You are useful to God if you die and Jesus is your personal Lord and Savior.

A blind fool with blind faith.....

Is still a blind fool.

PoWn3d_0704 wrote:A blind fool with blind faith.....

Faith is supposed to be blind, that's kinda the whole point. Everyone can believe and commit themselves to something they can see and touch. Just look at society. Only certain people can believe in what they actually CANNOT see, but only feel. I'm kind of getting tired of pointing this out all the time, unfortunatly, by the time you find out the truth, you'll be dead and it'll be too late.....

Plan on it buddy

PoWn3d_0704 wrote:Plan on it buddy

HAHAHAHA, if you mean what I THINK you mean, you're gonna be in for quiet a surprise come your judgement day.......

People always forget Judgement day.

Cpt. Crinkle wrote:People always forget Judgement day.

That's right, even Christians will be judged, they will atone for EACH and EVERY ONE of our sins that we commited in our lives. But because of our faith, Jesus will act as our lawyer. At least that's how I've come to understand it.

True.